Chasing it all

I want it all, and I believe that I can have it all. I believe that I can chase God, while also living a meaningful life filled with work, friends, family, adventure, and passion.

These past few months have been rough. I have neglected my hobbies, my faith, my physical and mental health, my family and friends, in search for what…..money? Work? I have learned (or more like come to the conclusion this morning while cleaning my bathroom), that I can have success at work while still making time for everything else that matters to me. I am currently 22 going on 23, and I feel 45. Working from 10-14 hours a day, coming home too tired to cook and going to sleep at 9pm – only to start again the next day. There is more to be done then simply going through the motions.

I don’t mind mind working and working hard, in fact I relish the feeling of hard work. I also  don’t mind coming home to relax. I don’t feel the need to constantly be out going somewhere. With that in mind, I want to be continuously using my time to do something either for myself or for others.

So, while cleaning, I’ve decided that I don’t have to and shouldn’t have to decide what or who is more important. I am not chasing perfection, just chasing the best version of myself and my time.